after smoking two cigarettes i had some retarded dreams about retarded stuff. gross stuff. sex stuff. yeah, well, perhaps that might be nicotine in my system waving its ugly face at me. guess i wont do that...

hi

someone else I know died yesterday. they think OD or suicide. This is getting retarded

Good morning assholes.

I'm trying to figure out an equation...one that equals me being rich and famous for being myself.

Right now, I currently don't have it figured out but what I do have figured out are elements of such that will get me there, I think.

The only problem is that I'm tired from exercise and tired of all of this bullshit.

that's the funny part. If I didn't have my life, i'd be completely fabulous all of the time and not feeling mediocre.

Ain't it a bitch sometimes?

Sup bitches?

I took some time for myself because I went on vacation to see my family back east and then came home and had some virus kicking my ass and then realized I needed to detox. So I did yesterday and I feel back to somewhat normal.

I had a great vacation besides being tired all of the time. I don't want to talk about the small details but lets just say my nephew is adorable, NYC is a lovely place to visit and there's a girl at the front desk at a hotel in Connecticut I should've fucked sideways because she was down but her supervisor showed up. Damn it.

Now I'm back and I've figured out that I need to cut certain bullshit out of my life that's slowing me down. Sadly, I've had to break up with alcohol. And most drugs have stopped working so I basically have to either go harder (no) or quit. No wonder people go insane.

I started fantasy football again and I hate it. I've been champion twice. Last season I didn't try that hard. Kind of silly.